I wanted to make something defiant...

This song was another case of just experimenting in the studio with live and electronic songs. It's crazy how everything that I start off making sounds so unbelievably corny that it makes me want to give up on music, but I always stick through with it until it sounds like the coolest thing that I 

ever heard. This one was super fun to produce because I wanted it to be gritty and defiant, which is why I played around with a lot of distortion on my vocals. I also tapped into my electronic drum set bag too. I was gifted a drum set by a girl I had an intense crush on. (She wasn't really messing with me like that though)

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The lyrics came from a place of contempt with the dating scene nowadays. I was real-life frustrated with how out of touch we are now with expectations within the first few encounters. The women that I'd meet on dating apps and in real life were either overwhelmingly attached to me or I could never fit into their rigid standards. It felt like absolutely no in-between. It felt like a cycle of someone wanting me bad, but I didn't want them that bad; but I wanted someone bad, but they didn't want me that bad because they wanted someone else bad that didn't really want them that bad. Crazy shit to think about... 

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The shit for real made me want to shout in angst about it in a microphone, so that's what I ended up doing. To be honest, I don't even think I revised what I wrote either. Everything that was said in this song was my raw, unrevised feelings about the subject. 

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I was also super nervous about releasing this song, just like I was with BLATT because at this point, I'm leaning into a sound that even EYE didn't know I was capable of pulling off. As a black man, this felt like such an offputting step in my music journey because I'm defying the expectations and boxes that I've been put into by society. At the end of the day, I came to the same conclusion...who gives a shit?!